Hi there.. Amber here! .. coming at you from Salina, KS.. in the middle of KS (the middle of the U.S.) .. same girl who wrote a short overview of who I am last Thursday:) In fact, I have made the decision to rearrange my normal work schedule and to take Thursdays away from my job as a hairdresser and do just that… WRITE!! 
I have been doing videos on YouTube for the past 50+ weeks for my blogsite- @halfwaythere.me. I currently have twenty subscribers!! I feel silly putting this out there… although, for the first time I feel like I can truly have a successful outcome with my blog site and social media.  You see.. I have struggled with realizing what  my own impact actually can be in this world! I am currently taking a course called, Side Hustle Social.. founded by some AmAzInG individuals, Andrew East and Shawn Johnson, along with their collogues! 
Today, on this Thursday,  the fifth day of March 2020 I am feeling confident in my ability to write and connect with others! This very day also brings some heartache. I have an individual in my life that I’ve cared for since our lines crossed. There has been resistance in our friendship unfolding due to things outside of my control. It is necessary to realize the outcome may not always be as planned. Maybe down the road when we both are at a different place in our journey.. our lines will cross again and things will be more as I hoped.

I can’t be the only person realizing that the BEGINNING OF THE END can be a really good thing! 
First and foremost, I am realizing the importance of boundaries! I have struggled with the concept of boundaries my whole life! It’s the BEGINNING OF THE END of putting my feelings by the wayside to help others!I now realize and know the importance of self-care. Self-care for me often times is helping others. It fills my cup up to identify and assist others when I can. At the same time, I have overextended myself in situations that I still feel uneasy about to this day. It is crucial to realize where I am on an emotional level and to set boundaries. I have and always will risk a lot in the name of helping someone in need! Especially those that end up in my network! I have always had an innate feeling that my lines cross with others for a reason! 
I am not claiming to be perfect.. I am perfectly imperfect in a lot of ways. I am the girl who can’t respond to very many things in the heat of the moment because I become so overwhelmed by my emotions. I now understand the importance of ‘sleeping on’ anything that’s going to have a big impact in my life. In fact, I take full responsibility for my current heartache. I did handle myself better than I would have in years prior. I just wish I could push a pause button anytime something challenging starts to unfold. It is THE BEGINNING OF THE END of me feeling responsible for other people’s actions. I am only in control of my responses to life by being in touch with my own value system and emotions. Control is an illusion!  
On an up note being loyal, caring and putting myself out there for others has given me some of the most rewarding life experiences! Such as being married to my high school sweetheart/business partner/all-time-crush for almost twenty years, raising our three sons together, adopting our youngest and fostering two older girls.. all of whom are my most cherished relationships! At the same time.. I have to know my limits and look out for myself, as well as my loved ones.  
 I have been attending talk therapy sessions with my husband for just over a year now. We started going to these sessions to gain some perspective and get on the same page on parenting. We seem to be in a good stance with parenting our two adult and two almost-adult children at this time. Still mentoring the older girls we fostered, playing an integral role in each other’s lives! I am working hard to be the best version of myself and lead by example too! 
The biggest thing that comes to mind when working through anything difficult is THE OUTCOME. When working through the difference.. what’s the outcome? It’s hard when you realize the outcome may not be what you see as the best one.. no matter how things go!
This type of obstacle has presented itself to me in several scenarios recently. I think the good Lord is teaching me that there are some things that are challenging and we just have to come to peace with the idea of moving forward. Honestly, it’s a reoccurring theme in all of our lives as we go through our life’s journey!
An important question I have been continually asking myself is, “Will I feel more peace by taking a break, closing the door and starting a new chapter?” 
As I close the door in some areas of my life and close in on turning forty these next couple of years.. I am also deciding that it’s THE BEGINNING OF THE END of hoping I could do things.. and realizing I CAN! I have lots of life experiences that I am excited to share! I realize that all the self-help peeps in this world have their own approach and I surely will find some peeps that like my style of self-help!!  Yours in Style, Amber
ps.  I am the girl that doesn’t like it when others don’t like me.. or don’t get me!! In talking my way through some of the hard parts of my life I have realized that it’s okay to not jive with everyone. In fact, it’s impossible!
Remember: THE BEGINNING OF THE END can be a really good thing! 
1) THE BEGINNING OF THE END of putting your feelings by the wayside to help others!2) THE BEGINNING OF THE END of feeling responsible for other people’s actions!3) THE BEGINNING OF THE END of hoping to be able to do things.. and realizing YOU CAN!