In this photo is my husband and I at our high school graduation reception, we married a month later!👀 I know I must have felt some uncertainty. I also was so confident, outgoing, naive and in love!!

We all face uncertainty in our daily lives. Recently I have been scared shitless about pursuing video content.. to continue to get a positive message about facing adversity out into the world! Video content is a strategy for all platforms! It is the most desired way the world wants to obtain information!😜

My husband has decided to get really focused on his social media content to continue to grow his real estate career. He has encouraged me to pick up where I sorta dropped off two years ago, after learning one of our sons had been sexually abused years prior by someone we thought was a good friend. It has been the most disheartening feeling ever. Even though I had been creating video content on YouTube for two consecutive years- with the goal of getting more comfortable on camera.. as soon as I learned the devastating news about our son I truly lost my voice. I felt sick, sad and questioned, “who the hell am I to be a voice?” I have been through lots of hard things. Although, that is the hardest one to date! I felt shame, disgust, betrayal and hurt. I kept pushing forward like any other time I have experienced trauma, loss, and pain. I think the single thing that has helped me begin the healing process the most.. is watching how successful our son has chosen to be. He refuses to be a victim! He has had more years to process the sick behavior he was subjected to. He waited until he was an adult to tell us, knowing he didn’t want to be drug through the legal system. It is crazy how outrageous it is to get sexual abusers behind bars. I guess I do believe in karma! I also believe in healing and making the best of the hardest situations! I am positive that it’s something you never fully get over!

Aside from time, I think just pressing forward with daily goals keeps me going! Although, being on anxiety medicine has been necessary. I have tried to wean off three time and at this point have accepted that it’s necessary. I guess if I had a different illness I would take the medicine that’s prescribed! Our four adult kids are and always will be our reason to do our best!

I have two meetings under my belt with miss Gaby, a dear friend who obtained her degree in Marketing and Communications, she has agreed to assist in making this video content a possibility! She’s one of the sweetest, strongest, and most determined young ladies I know! She is so encouraging and I would say we both believe in each other and it is bound to help make the process more successful!! She has honestly helped me overcome some of the fear I’ve had and has reminded me that I have nothing to lose by going for it!

For ten days after first meeting with Gaby, I was a mess inside. Mostly because I am scared of failure. There is more to this process than I originally expected. I would say not knowing, often helps us go for it! After meeting with her on Monday and not really being prepared, she made me believe that good things can become of my message and sharing my truth!

This very day is the scheduled day to provide new content. I was extremely nervous when she videoed me on Monday. She has sent me a sneak peak of the intro and I was actually impressed! I would say, Gaby definitely has a strength in making things come together in the best possible way! I meet with her this evening and will put what we have so far out into the world. This is just the beginning of so many possibilities. I am believing it is only up from here.

So here is to the start of something that feels scary and uncertain! Just like the photo of Johnny and I at our grad reception.. I am uncertain of future hardships. I am also very sure we can all get through uncertainty by believing and seeing the best! Keep pushing ourselves to becoming the best versions of ourselves. I can for sure say that in the pursuit of facing adversity and seeking happiness, I have found how to see and believe in the good in this world!

If you are or know someone that could benefit in knowing they aren’t alone in their struggles.. following my journey could be a lighthearted way to feel and be your best!

Stay Rosy, Amber 🤍🤟

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